Monday, August 23 I got to a room in the hospital. The Rapid Response Team and the Dr. that was with them were great. I don’t remember, but I was told they were called again because I was hurting in my chest. They did an EKG and everything was OK. I got put on the BiPap that night. I eventually named her Betsy. The respiratory lady that put Betsy on was very rude. I was scared out of my mind and there is this lady hollering at me. I had never used a BiPap and had no idea how it worked. She is yelling at me that I have to keep this on or the only other choice is intubation and you most likely won’t come back from that. She gets me all set up and leaves. I had the sweetest nurse that night. She stayed in the room with me and held my hand. I couldn’t get the hang of Betsy and I still felt like I couldn’t breathe, so my nurse called the respiratory lady back twice. The second time, she comes flying in the room and looks at the machine and says you are fine. All the numbers on the machine are good. You have to quit calling me and get used to the BiPap. If you don’t want to get used to it, we can intubate you and you more than likely won’t survive that. But if that is what you want, we will do it. It was hard to talk with Betsy on and I told her I didn’t feel like I could breathe. In a loud voice, she said you aren’t listening to me. Before she could say anything else I screamed as loud as I could and said you aren’t listening to me. I told her I had never used one of these before and I was scared. To explain to me how it worked. She did and once I understood, I could inhale and exhale with the machine and eventually got the hang of it. I fell asleep and slept the rest of the night.

Tuesday, August 24 That morning, I had an ICU nurse with me. They wanted to move me to ICU but no beds so they had a nurse come stay with me. They moved me out of that room to another room at some point that day. While they were preparing to move me, the Dr.(whom I didn’t like) came in. He said, you see the reason we moved you from the Mobile Unit was because you were having some trouble breathing and we can better monitor you here. I thought, it was a little more than a little trouble breathing, but Ok whatever. Then, guess what he asked me? Have you had a bowel movement? i just shook my head and waved him out of my room. I got moved to another room and I don’ remember much for a couple of days. I was completely out of it. I have a few memories that I will share with you tomorrow.
Thanks for taking the time to read this. Until tomorrow. God Bless.